I think I was in a refugee camp. There was one long white cabin with several sections in it, a look out tower, and then a play structure just off to the side of a giant baseball diamond. It was snowing, and I wasn't wearing very much clothing; like I wasn't wearing shoes, just socks, which were getting wet. And some sort of huge man's t-shirt and some shorts. I was freezing. I started climbing the latter up the look out tower, and there was a man that reminded me a lot of a young Harrison Ford. (There was a Star Wars marathon 2 days ago so I'm not that surprised.) He had pretty much the same kind of outfit as Han Solo or Indiana Jones. And I think for the time being in this dream I was in love with him, (Though I'm usually the kind that goes for the good looking supervillain, not Darth Vader though I can't really go for a guy that wears a helmet all the time) In the look out tower there was a pretty nice bedroom with books and a bed and a couch. I sat on the couch without invitation and Harrison looked at me without saying anything first, like he knew me very well. My socks dripped onto his floor as I shivered on his couch. Then Harrison got up and went to his closet, he grabbed a giant coat, then he went to his drawer and grabbed some giant socks. He slid off my wet socks off of my feet for me and put on his nice dry man socks, as well as he held the jacket open for me to shrug into.
I sat back down, and then another girl came into his room and sat down next to me on the couch. She was fully dressed AND had a pretty scarf and she had pretty blond hair, she smiled at me as if she knew me. But neither me or Harrison could react to the new girl's presence. Because something blow through the roof and crushed her. Another girl popped up and said that "they" were invading or attacking.. I don't think they were aliens. Harrison was the first to start down the latter, I saw some of his big cow boy boots and slipped them on without asking, which I think I saw him smirking. We ran through the long cabins and we told everyone we needed to move. I didn't see anybody I recognized, so I stuck to Harrison Ford since at least he was helping me. Soon enough, there were a lot of people with small packs on their backs, walking through the snow. I was completely on my own while others had family, I didn't even know where Harrison Ford was anymore. But then we saw this big wooden bridge with a roof, and other people were standing along the sides, other refugees I guess. Then I saw my mama and her boy friend. and they were happy to see me, I don't remember what else happened after that.

I'm writing the first story of a series of short stories.

And Pretty much its almost auto-biographical but not. Its all the truth but all lies at the same time. Its some very personal stuff mixed in with magical imagery. It has very real themes and concepts yet its all dramatized. And the only times I've ever get the inspiration to work on this new concept is at 3 o'clock in the morning. So this might actually turn out horrible. This could either turn out friggin brilliant and maybe even publishable... or it could suck... really bad.
So, I really don't know how its going to turn out, it might turn out to be just all B.S. and I could probably never finish it.
It might just prove that I actually am... crazy. I'm nuts, I'm insane. And these stories are going to be my take on the world and my life mixed with life experiences and people I know mixed with random thoughts and where every my imagination damn well pleases. So some one please sign me up for the institution, maybe the voices will stop then.

haha just kidding.

no one can silence the voices :)

oh god whats wrong with me

I'm gonna go sleep now.

*boom*

Well it started out really weird but kind of cool.
I was in some sort of magical class, being taught by none other than VIN DEISAL where we were walking around and learning to sense different energies in different environments.
It was in a building that had a lot of energy. And of course the building got too full of energy and was about to explode. And so we had to evacuate the building. I was the last one out, and it was kind of like one of those action diving from the explosion of the energy which was like pink and purple. But I got hit and suddenly had the power to emit purple lighting out of myself. But the building was a magical building and it was mad at us. So we had to run away. and it was in the middle of the night in the middle of what looked like The Sunset district of San Francisco, or the Richmond District.. I'm not sure. But there were all these magical teens running around on the empty streets at night. And If we got even close to the building that exploded, the building would lash out at us. It was sending different sparks at us and it through a SNAKE at me or sent one after me.. I'm not sure. But the snake came over and I instantly just stepped on it and killed it.

Which if anyone remembers my other dreams in my previous posts, reptiles for me usually means a problem, something bothering me, some sort of obstacle, and how I deal with it. Last year a snake attacked me in a dream and I ran from it till it finally caught me and I ran to a huge flight of stairs, threw it down the stair well and ran back inside and shut the door, I avoided my problem at all costs even when I was confronted directly by it. The second dream it was a Lizard, I ran at first, but when the reptile finally caught up with me I calmed down and tried to become one with the lizard. I accepted my problem and just dealt with it. This time I get a snake thrown at me and I stomped it out, with out even thinking, with out running. My problem was thrown violently at me and I took care of it quickly. What are you thoughts of this?

So then in the dark streets I bumped into this guy in the class that I seemed to be close to and we go to this house of some one I really do know. And we ask if we can stay the night. Our friend says yes, then it becomes early morning and I'm in his bathroom looking at all these different bottles and smelling them. Then I come out and I guess the guys were fighting, because my friend that owned the house looked all mad, so we got kicked out.

About a year ago in august. I had this scary dream about this snake following me around this house that was in a huge building on the top floor. And eventually the snake latched onto my wrist and wouldn't let go. so I ran out the door, to the stairs and threw the snake down the stairwell, and ran back and closed the door.



This time I was with some friends and we were going to get on this bus, the bus stop was next to this like dilapidated back woods shed building kinda place. But the inside looked like a gymnasium.
I didn't have a bus pass so I went into the building into this back room.
And my mom was sitting at a desk concentrating on some really important paper work or something.
In this back room was a bed and a desk and a whole bunch of empty snake cages.
Then my mom said something about my changing my underwear or something and leaves.
So, I started to change, and I had leggings under my pants cause it was cold I guess.
Just as I got my leggings on, I see this gigantic black lizard with orange spots and big orange eyes.
The Lizard slithered out of it's cage and started scuttling towards me.
So, I screamed and ran out to the gym where there were all these children and some sort of adult teacher person.
And I ran by them and the lizard followed me just like the snake did.
Then the adults in the gym get annoyed with me and kick me and the lizard outside.
So I ran away from the lizard, but it caught up and crawled up my back.
The lizard started to spit acid at the ground, but not on me.
In fact it does nothing but stand on my shoulders.
So, Instead of throwing the lizard and running, I just stood still.
I hid my face with my hand just in case the lizard decided to spit at me.
I stood still, closed my eyes, and started to try to connect with the lizard.
I started to try to breath at the same pace as the lizard.
I accepted the Lizard and tried to just be calm and just let this lizard sit on me until it decided to leave or I just had a knew pet lizard.

Have you ever felt like you could be a force of nature?
To create hurricanes
To move mountains
To explode like a volcano erruption
To harness so much power and let it free into the universe
I wish I could be a force of nature
I wish every step I took the earth would quake
And ever breath i breathed would blow away houses
I wish I could raise my hand up to the sky and a Tsunami would flood the nation
I wish I could feel like a force of nature
Don't You?

Dream number 1:
I was in a forest with a whole bunch of pagans, none of them I recognized.
And I kept following them through this stone archway with big black gates.
Suddenly they would just BURST into flames!
And then this Raven that was sitting on the stone wall off to the side would just grow and grow and until is was GINORMOUS and it swallowed the burning pagan.
So, I ran back to the others, who were going to go out one by one for some reason, and I tried to tell them not to go through the arch way.
But they kept doing it anyway, they either acted like the didn't hear me or looked at me as if I were some kid with an over active imagination... well that's true but still.
So I kept watching people bursting into flames then getting eaten by this huge Raven.

Dream number 2:
This was the night after the first dream.
I was living in this weird tree house community.
Everyone lived in tree houses and her had wooden side walks that connected the different trees and some times with the ground
I was running up one of the wooden side walks and I hear this guy that I seem to know, and he's yelling at me to get away from there.
I turn around, and there right in front of me is a GIGANTIC Tarantula.
So I run to my house up this ladder into the INSIDE of a tree.
It kinda looks like a college dorm inside. messy with bunk beds.
I grab a duffel bag, pack my clothes and climb back down the tree.
I run through the forest as fast as I can, and I can hear people yelling and the trees rustling past me.
I stop at a huge building not unlike the white house but with big green drapes.
There was this fat southern guy with glasses and a gray suit at the door and people piling in.
I ran into the line and got inside. It was like a huge Victorian mansion and there was this green and white theme to everything with a gold trim. The people inside gave me a room to sleep in, and some food to eat.
Everyone waited for the spiders to come in anticipation. We could all hear the huge spiders getting closer, a deep low rumble on the ground kept getting closer and closer.
I saw a huge tarantula move in my window, I screamed and ran down this big spiral ramp that circled the middle of the mansion.
The spiders tried to get into the door, and just when the door flew open...
I woke up.

It was very gray, like Ocean Beach in San Francisco with over cast fog.
I was watching the waves roll back and forth, felt the wind through my hair, which was brown not black like it is now.
It felt like i was really there and it was really happening.
And I remembered my scary ocean dream and got suddenly really scared of the ocean.
I was with friends but not pagans, I don't exactly remember which friends.
I started to panic and I yelled to them that I wanted to go because I was scared my dream was going to come true.
They told me it was just a dream and nothing was going to happen, so I took a deep breath and calmed down.
Suddenly the waves reared back, and I kinda just went "Oh shit!" and ran up these cement stairs.
The waves got bigger and bigger, and when I got to the top of this giant cement platform the waves were taller.
I stared up in fear and awe of the sea green tsunami, that stayed in place.
Then Yemaya appeared on another smaller wave right in front of me.
She was pregnant.
Not only that but there was a big umbilical cord connecting my belly button to her's. 
Then I woke up.

Me and  Whole bunch of pagans were at the beach.
We were lined up next to the waves,
The waves kept getting bigger and we pushed our backs against it like it was a silk sheet around us.
I decided to be daring and move back into the waves more, suddenly Sabrina said "move away!"
so we all moved away from the ocean to these seats the were like theater seats, and the went up this hil of sand.
Sabrina started for Yemaya or I'm pretty sure its Yemaya because we were at the ocean,
The waves rose up all the way to the top seats, Sabrina/Yemaya said "This is what happens when anger is timed right"
And the waves came back rushing down at us, but I could hardly feel it.
This happened a few times, waves all the way up and then crashing down.
The last wave, I some how lost balance, water rushed everywhere, then stopped abruptly.
I was caught in a way that stood still. It curled over everyone, it was bright blue adn shimmered with the sun above.
I tried to use the sand to crawl out but something i couldn't feel kept me there. I started to panick, I screamed and yelled.
Then started to inch my way across the wave to where Sabrina was relaxing in the sun. I asked her to help. She did a little, I got almost all of me out before this ocean hand came and grabbed me again. Then a woman through a bubble of ocean came out and she looked really angry with me. Sabrina said that the woman's daughter was in there. There woman looked at me deep in the face. Her eyes were wild and scary, but also very beautiful. I turned to my mom and asked her to pull me out but she said she couldn't. Then I asked somebody if he could help me out once I helped the woman get her daughter.
I remember hearing the woman's voice in my saying don't let the thing get a hold of you, it won't let go."
As she pulled me into the wave I found that I could somewhat breath underwater. Her face was very tan, but then the face disappeared and it was just her piercing blue eyes. As she swam ahead her body kept moving back into water. She was shimmering, like the sun showed her solid, but all she was, was ocean.
she pulled along the ocean floor until we met a large magnificent giant purple squid. Its tentacles lashing about with such power. And close to the middle was a new born baby girl. I held onto the woman while she swam up close and tried to grab the baby. 
Then I woke up almost crying.